Having a slightly less than perfect memory can pose its problems at the best of times, but when you're grappling with difficult thoughts it can be an absolute nightmare as some of the most fleeting of thoughts have a habit of being some of the most truthful. This memory problem also starts to annoy the people around you as you open your mouth to say something, only to realise that you've forgotten what you were going to say; and you could have been about to say something deep and meaningful that could have changed someone's life.
So after being scored by Fran for doing this far too often, I shall now be writing lots of things down in an attempt to hold onto these brief thoughts. Some things that I write down will be deep and meaningful, and many will be pointless, but the point of this is that I can elaborate on the important thoughts later, when I have the time and space to think about them, and it is time which I crave then most.
It's just a shame that I have AS-Levels to revise so I have little spare time but things are working. Progress is being made, I am feeling better, but yet I still manage to feel awful at the same time. It is all very confusing, but I do at least have a place to start with my thoughts. I need to work out what I want from everything. Once I know that I can start working towards it.
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